yes, salamanders are slow processers. and a free class on the truth.

I spend a lot of time being clever…

in my head.

The truth is I’m not too quick on the draw — I’m a slow processer, like a salamander. I prefer to mull things over thousands of several times before I feel prepared to respond.

I’ve learned to accept and even appreciate this, bar momentary relapses (usually when I’m not feeling grounded or connected, i.e., not taking care of myself), as with a recent conversation with an acquaintance.

She was sharing about how well things are going in her life. Something about it triggered me: I felt a shift in my heart rate, a slight tensing in my solar plexus and instantly a voice in my head said Say something clever, be charming!

Oh, the ego is so delicate.

For better or worse, I spent a good part of a minute trying come up with something to say. Of course, I couldn’t come up with anything. Today I can, but in the moment? No.

And thank goodness.

Not saying anything left the silence and space for her to play out her story (which turned out to not be all sunshine and cherries). And space for me to be in my jealously and watch it shift in my body and eventually move through, leaving yet more space.

I notice something similar when a friend is in need or making a decision. Ooo ooo, I know what you should do!

But rushing in with fixes rob us of the opportunity to let the thing run its natural course. And, like with teaching, how much better is it for a person to find their own way to an answer than for you give it to them? Claiming that you know for them is actually quite arrogant.

In the midst of this interaction I also remembered that we’re currently studying ahimsa and sayta (non-violence and non-lying) in the Enrichment Program.

It was a great reminder that these foundational restraints and observances are a choice. The mindful life takes practice and patience, effort and discipline (but that’s tapas and we’re not there yet:).

Anyway, chances are my acquaintance wouldn’t have thought I was as brilliant and amazing as I’d have wanted her to.

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In celebration of being more honest with ourselves, here’s a free class practice based on satya. Play with the little ways you exaggerate or deny or camouflage. Let me know how it feels (honestly!).

Click to listen, right click to save or open in iTunes.

It would be great to have a strap or robe tie, padding for your knees, two blocks (or just use the seat of a chair) and a little piece of wall. Don’t let all the stuff scare you — it’s a pretty simple and lighthearted class based around Half Moon Pose.

Satya Beginner Class

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7 Responses to “yes, salamanders are slow processers. and a free class on the truth.”


  1. 1 Callie September 20, 2011 at 11:38 pm

    How funny, I always think you are so composed and have lovely things to say…to find out you are a slow processor. I am as well and I have felt that this is a big lack, a problem and anxiety usually takes over. Hmm learning to appreciate this quality is something to work on :)

    • 2 blogasana September 23, 2011 at 4:40 am

      it’s taken me a while to learn to appreciate it, callie, but i do see benefits now. i see you as very genuine and kind… and those qualities are not bound by a timed response :)

  2. 3 Teacher Goes Back to School September 21, 2011 at 5:32 am

    thank you! i loved the part about the mean voices being the loud ones and the soft voices being your friends. i think i heard myself laugh.

    such a great class in person and audio!

  3. 5 Kelley M September 22, 2011 at 3:36 am

    hey there. i cannot bet the mp3 to work for me. can you email it to me separately. can’t wait for more half moon. XO


  1. 1 What Scares Me Most… « Teacher Goes Back to School Trackback on September 21, 2011 at 12:40 pm

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